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[06 Feb 2010|06:57pm] |
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what if you could buy self confidence in a jar. take twice a day, with food; do not take on an empty stomach. it wouldn't be self confidence in the form of drugs or pills. no, i'd like to imagine you could open it up & it would whisper beautiful things to you... i'd like that. i need that. i know i'm beautiful... its just so hard to feel sometimes.
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[29 Jan 2010|11:52pm] |
i want to move out. i want my own little house, with my own little picket fence and my own little coffee table that i can have people over for tea parties on. i want my own pot plants... i want my own garden, my own little veggie patch. i want a puppy, no... a kitten! yeah, a kitten... and i want my little house to be full of vintage furniture and art. i want it to be airy and bright, quiet and quaint. i don't want it to cost any money either.... sigh.
also, if things continue going according to plan... i'm going to Canada and the US in June.
yippie.
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[15 Jan 2010|07:03pm] |
i'm sick of chasing you...
please stop running and let me walk beside you.
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[13 Jan 2010|06:40pm] |
it rained. i feel better.
in other news, it just hit me that we're all going to die this century.
none of us will live to see 2100. oh life.
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[11 Jan 2010|10:20pm] |
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okay. so its 43 degrees or something like that and my house has no aircon. i do have a fan, but its just the same recirculated hot air that's being blown at my face over and over and over again. sometimes i end up sitting in the shower and turning the tap every 20 or so minutes for a cool blast of water. speaking of water, i've had about 4 litres today and haven't pissed once. i'm pretty sure its replenishing my cells and body or whatever... either way, i don't feel like i can function. this whole post is just nothing. disjointed. i have a heat rash all over my body. my body hurts. my head hurts. thinking thinking thinking. why am i thinking. i know. but i wont say. my eyes hurt because my sweaty back is glued to the chair so i can't turn the light on. dark. darkness. i need more water.
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[29 Dec 2009|12:29am] |
its the 29th of december 2009.
3 days after christmas. 3 days until the new year.
2010.
what are people going to say? we've had the 70's 80's 90's and noughties, etc...
what will we call our next decade?
two thousand and ten?
twenty ten?
ten?
ps: whilst trying to be festive during this hell of a holiday, i made a bunch of christmas mix cds that i wanted to post to my friends... i didn't happen. perhaps next year, eh?
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[18 Dec 2009|07:43pm] |
this christmas, i'm not going to give gifts... i'm just going to wrap up the things i've borrowed from various people and return it to them. thoughtful, yes. i know.
FYI: don't lend me your belongings.
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[08 Dec 2009|08:12pm] |
does anyone know where i can purchase some will-power?
god damn! why is loosing weight so fucking hard?
... maybe because my mother won a years supply of tim-tams.
fml.
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[18 Nov 2009|01:38am] |
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i am in love with my iphone, claudia.
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[21 Oct 2009|06:23pm] |
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boy, i sure do feel insecure right about now...
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[13 Oct 2009|09:44pm] |
whoever said letting your guard down and making yourself vulnerable was a good idea deserves to be dragged out into the street and stoned to death.
this feeling can fuck right off.
crisis is slowly diminishing, i feel better. i have plans.
i can't keep up with my ranga lifestyle. too much upkeep.
i'ma brunette again now. holla bitchez.
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[08 Oct 2009|10:29pm] |
oh god, help me.
i'm in the midst of an existential crisis. my body feels black and blue from the internal struggle i'm having with my mind.
the last link in my chain was detached today... and with the little things already built up it was the icing on the cake that i wasn't ready for.
i feel like everyone knows what they're doing, they all have their shit together and i'm still the same person i was two years ago. i've stayed in the same place while everyone is moving up and on to other things. i want to. i need to. i will.
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[28 Sep 2009|11:22pm] |
i just saw a preview of the 2010 big day out lineup.
seriously. fuck off.
i'm sick of the same fucking artists doing the australian music festival circuit.
the first announcement is....
Muse, Powderfinger, Lily Allen, Eskimo Joe, Groove Armada, Grinspoon, The Mars Volta, Ladyhawke, Dizzee Rascal, Karnivool, Peaches, The Temper Trap, Kasabian, Midnight Juggernauts, Rise Against, Magic Dirt, Mastodon, Lisa Mitchell, The Hor...rors, Bluejuice, Calvin Harris, Kisschasy, The Decemberists, Tame Impala & Girl Talk
ehem.
i saw peaches headlined parklife last year.
muse, the mars volta, kasabian and dizzee rascal all played big day out on the '08 lineup.
girl talk headlined laneway festival earlier this year...
and powderfinger, eskimo joe, grinspoon, magic dirt, lisa mitchell, tame impala, kisschasy are all australian artists that you could pay 30 bucks to see at a local venue because they tour every 2 months!
the lame thing is that i'll probably still go. sigh.
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[25 Sep 2009|01:09am] |
i've been so careless with money recently...
basically spent most of my savings. so shit.
might as well push back my overseas trip till 2019.
i've decided to collect teapots. i have two at the moment. i like them.
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[09 Sep 2009|12:01am] |
right now i actually feel physically ill... i've had the worst day ever. i want to cry.
why is the world so shit?
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[06 Sep 2009|10:15pm] |
my september in four steps.
step 1: go to sydney. ben folds.
step 2: buy lemon detox diet and clean out my system for summer. stop being so sluggish.
step 3: re-construct lifestyle, priorities and friendships... see more of the people i've recently been seeing less of.
step 4: the royal adelaide show.
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[24 Aug 2009|01:06am] |
fuck yeah. i feel good.
kara, when are we gonna hangz?
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[21 Aug 2009|01:06am] |
it's the same as before. or the other time. or the time before that. hope and doubt coexist in the back of my mind. always. i can never tell which will outweigh the other.
i hope i hope i hope. that for once, maybe for once, it isn't all a dream.
i doubt i doubt i doubt. because its all just a cycle. i can see the future.
overanalyzation and an acute self awareness aren't always a good thing. i'm scared that i'll get scared and that i'll forever be this tangled mess of confusion.
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[23 Jul 2009|11:44pm] |
my hormones are so retarded today. i feel fuckin' shitt.
confused and hurt. it's the little things. but hey, i'm doin' alright. at least i'm alive.
i with someone could tell me how to keep my eyes on the road. i have trouble when i know that there is so much more for me to experience than pavement.
actually, i don't.
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[21 Jul 2009|12:04am] |
sometimes i wish everyone would just fuck off.
but for the most part, i know i need them near.
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